What Gets Me Out Of Bed Every Morning
I don't know about you, but each and every morning when I wake up the first thing I think about is what my next step in life is. I honestly think about what I am doing next. When I write in my journal for 10 minutes or so, I'm thinking about everything I've done in my life up until that point and what I want to make happen in the future.
A lot of it comes from the fact that I decided to make 2016 a year of "growth" and just by deciding that, I enrolled in a 5 week "GROW" workshop, I made the switch from my first blog to creating a new blog, I'm more focused on what I want to accomplish within the next year and not what I want to do tomorrow. I even changed parts of my lifestyle like waking up 5:30/6AM in the morning. All of this came from making a decision and sticking with it, but I wasn't always like this. Just last year I felt stuck, confused, and struggled to figure out what I wanted to do in life. And it's this confusion, struggling, and the feeling of being stuck that I used as motivation to help me throughout this year.
Here are 3 things that stay on my mind when I wake up in the morning:
1. My fear of change
I recently sent my blog followers an email about fear of failure and the fear of change. After taking a workshop on growing to know yourself, I realized that what I was calling a fear of failure was actually a fear of change. I was uncomfortable with making the necessary changes in my life for me to get where I wanted to be. I noticed that investing in my future and my life, meant making tweaks to the lifestyle I was living. I've said it here on the blog before that I now wake up at 6AM, not every morning, but majority of my mornings I'm up when my fiance is still sleeping. I do this because in order for me to become a writer, I have to wake up early enough so that I can write everyday. In order for me to manage my blog and social media all by myself, I have to wake up early enough to keep things running.
It is this change that made me hold off on my goals. I was too scared to bring things into existence because I was comfortable where I was. I was comfortable sleeping past 8AM. I was comfortable waiting until the last minute to do what I needed to do. I was even comfortable with being the only person reading my blog faithfully because I was too scared to have other people read what I wrote. But being comfortable made it seem like I was happy where I was, when actually I wasn't.
"Change is required if you really want to accomplish your goals" - @becomingnatasha
2. Listening to other people who don't or didn't understand
It's hard to get people to understand why I write online, why I use social media somewhat differently, why I listen to people talk on Periscope 8AM in the morning, and even make to-do lists. The sad truth is that most people have what it takes to make things happen in their lives, but they refuse to commit to it. I was one of those people, but now I'm committing to something, a goal in my life, and other people are looking at me as either I'm not doing what they think I should be doing or they're amazed at how I'm committed to making something happen. And, to be honest, it's not that they don't understand what I'm doing, they don't understand how I'm able to do it.
"Most people are amazed when they see others commit to something because they are too scared to make necessary changes in their lives" - @becomingnatasha
When I tell people I wake up and write at least 10 minutes, they're amazed at how I'm able to do it. I share 3 blog posts a week here at Becoming Natasha, and for you reading this or for other bloggers, that might be a challenge for you or them.
3. I figured out how I want to be remembered
Maya Angelou said it best, "...people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel". There is so much truth in this. Instead of asking myself what I wanted to be, I ask myself what I do I want to be remembered as?
"Being remembered as something is different from what you want to become."
I fear each and every morning when I wake up that people will never remember how much I love to write; that people will only remember me as Darryl's daughter or as a sister, a granddaughter, a wife-to-be, a college graduate, an aunt, a cousin, and an aspiring entrepreneur. All of this and more runs through my mind when I write in my journal for 10 minutes, when I open up my laptop, while I'm working at my 9-5, and even the reason why I decided to start Becoming Natasha. I realized that I don't want people to remember the many titles that I have, but what I was striving to do with my life, who I was trying to reach with my words and through my writing.